You'll Never Be

One thing about looking yourself in the mirror, is how one thing can be great and another you'll feel you have to work on. I've gotten older, I know I'm no longer a 16yr old boy who is petite skin and bones lol. I've put on a nice amount of weight and whether people see it or not I DO and that's all that matters to me lol, now I'm not saying I'm obsessive or anything but I do tend to dwell on what I want this to look like and what I want that to look like, I have to constantly tell myself, Benjamin you'll work on it, you'll get it together and get it all together... Once that day does come this is what I want you to get out of this message is that you'll never be skinny enough, healthy enough, or happy enough and you know why because we thrive off of fault. It's not a good thing but we always seem to find a problem area that needs a little TLC. I've been there time and time again and it does hurt you, you're gonna always bring something in your past to affect how something is happening in your present it's a part of our mind. It's our history and no one can take that away from us. But what makes you stronger is accepting the fault and moving forward, its never gonna be easy, but it will be challenging... why would you want something easy lol. I always find myself challenging myself without even doing it half time, remember trying to achieve other peoples expectations are setting you up for failure. It's like an light swtich that goes off and what its going to do is give you that extra strength to realize you'll become all the NEVER BE'S because what you will be is yourself and that's all you can shoot for is to be yourself remember that. xoxo - Moiciara